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Exclamation! - A Poem - March 30, 2011

Smell through your ears!

Drink salty tears!

Hear through your nose!

Talk with your toes!

 

Touch with your blood!

Bathe in fresh mud!

Sit on your wrists!

Eat from your fists!

 

Draw with your knees!

Be a shy tease!

Dance on your elbows!

Deliver the low blows!


Sip with your thigh!

Make the gal sigh!

Drive on your shoulder!

Be strong, be bolder!

 

Walk on your chest!

Stand and confess!

Scream through your tooth!

‘Til you’re dripping the truth!


- Angel LaCanfora

    3/30/2011 

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Heads-up! - March 26, 2011

The Los Angeles Times is featuring another shot of mine as their "Photo of the Day" for March 26th! That's the 2nd one this year! http://www.latimes.com/features/socalmoments/

New Mosaics & News - March 24, 2011

Cranking out the pop art mosaics. They're fun & like their name suggests, popular! I've sold most of the pieces from this series. Here are #'s 12 & 13 (12 is sold but 13 can be found in my Etsy shop: http://www.etsy.com/listing/70749259/pop-art-mosaic-13)

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AND... I've been accepted into the Huntington Beach ArtWalk! My 1st one will be Wednesday, April 20th. I'll be set up on Main Street in beautiful downtown HB, from 6pm-9pm, so mark those calendars! (or click those Iphones? I guess people probably aren't really "marking" calendars anymore?...hush, Angel...)

Addendum to Photo Fun... - March 23, 2011

Just discovered that a couple photos of mine have been accepted by a stock photo company! Woo hoo! This makes my day... check it out! http://www.dreamstime.com/Angellacanfora_info

Fun with photography! - March 23, 2011

Yesterday one of my photos was featured in the local newspaper's (the OC Register) gallery.http://www.ocregister.com/articles/cloudy-293096-rain-partly.html?pic=1 And let me tell you, I've found that the more photos I shoot, the more I crave shooting. Capturing a cool image is a real rush. You know it when you got it. Stalking a shot brings out the huntress in me. When I see a potentially special shot, I get a little burst of adrenaline. I'm so totally focused and in the moment. My favorite pursuits all have that in common, this collapsing of the world around me, life's background noise tuned down low; finding myself in something of a Zen-like trance. I feel this way when I'm playing my guitar and singing or writing a song; when I'm engrossed in making a mosaic and now I've gotten to that point with photography. This whole photography thing for me has been gaining momentum by the day. Whether I'm photographing a brilliant sunset or a musician laying down licks in the spotlight's glow, I can feel my mind opening up to the possibilities of this medium. So I'm letting this photo train carry me down its tracks, where it'll stop next, I've got no idea. But I'm letting it transport me, excited at the prospect of new vistas.

(And while I'm here, r.i.p. Elizabeth Taylor, one of the greats...)

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A Night Turned Life - Part II - March 22, 2011

(Note: The first half of this tale can be found here as the March 2nd entry)

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“What’s your name? I’m Ed....yeah, you shouldn’t have to walk in the dark. I’ll be glad to drop you off where ever.” 

 

Jennifer and Ed exchanged pleasantries. He was recently separated from his girlfriend and was lonely, looking for company. Would Jennifer hang out with him? Have a couple drinks maybe?

 

Jen, being the free-spirited kind of gal she was and lonely too, said all right. They stopped at a gas station, picked up a 6-pack.

 

Where could they go to hang out? Jen suggested the sprawling park by her folks house. They drove over, parked. It was now totally dark as they made their way to the lakeside. 

 

They sat down, had a couple beers, chatted about their lives. 

 

A couple beers later and Ed suddenly leaned in for a kiss.

 

Jen, caught off guard, pushed him away. “No, I’ve got a boyfriend.”

 

In a flash he was on top of her, had her pinned down with his weight. 

 

“What are you doing?? Get off me!”

 

He caught hold of her hands, wrestled her arms over her head.

 

She caught the glint of metal out of the corner of her eye. And in the next moment, felt the steel envelope her wrists.

 

Her arms now handcuffed around a small sapling tree, Jennifer was helpless to fight back. With tears streaming down her face, Ed proceeded to violate her and in those minutes, alter the course of her life forever.

 

Startled in the middle of the act, he looked up alarmed. 

 

“Shit. A car.”

 

The headlights of a car from the parking lot were aimed in their direction.

 

“We’ve got to get out of here. It could be cops.” 

 

He hitched up his pants. They realized he didn’t have a key for the handcuffs, so they had to wrestle its branches down low to slip her arms around them. Once Jen could reach, she wrangled her shorts up. And before she could process what was happening, Ed had hold of her arm and was dragging her forcefully across the grass, back to the car.

 

“What are you doing? Where are we going?” Jennifer stammered.

 

“Shut up.” 

 

Ed opened the door of his car, shoved her in.

 

He climbed into the drivers seat and wasted no time starting the engine.

 

“Where are we going?”

 

“I said shut the fuck up.”

 

He drove quickly, swiftly through town. Jennifer sat mute in stunned silence, tears quietly falling, cuffed hands in her lap.

 

Ed turned into a large apartment complex and drove down to the far end of a carport. He pulled into the last space, next to a storage room. 

 

He leapt out, rounded the car, opened her door.

 

Jen slid from her seat, on her butt, straight down to the ground.

 

“I’ve got to get those cuffs off you,” Ed barked.

 

Ed went to the storage room and rummaged around. 

 

Jennifer was sobbing now. 

 

Ed returned with a chainsaw.

 

“You’re going to kill me...” The numb realization that this could only get worse washing over her. 

 

“Shut up!!”

 

He examined the cuffs, turned on the saw and lowered it as Jen shut her eyes tightly, holding her breath and blacked out. When she opened her eyes, the cuffs were off and Ed was back in the storage room. Without a moment’s hesitation, she made a run for it. 

 

Sprinting over the blacktop, Ed caught up with her, snagged her from behind.

 

“Don’t leave me, Jennifer....I... I love you!” 

 

Ed was holding her arms hard, making her wince.

 

Tears were forming in Ed’s eyes.

 

“Please...don’t go. I love you. I want to marry you. Will you marry me.”

 

And it was at this moment that Jen saw a way out.

 

“Yes....yes, sure, I’ll marry you...” Jennifer responded in as calm and even tone as she could muster.

 

“Really?? Really, you mean it? You’ll marry me?”

 

“Yeah....sure... But you’ll have to take me home. There’s a lot to do to get ready, I’ll need a good night’s sleep.”

 

“Really....you’ll marry me? Really? You mean it? I love you...”

 

“Yes, just take me home, let me get a good night’s sleep, and we can work on the arrangements in the morning.”

 

Ed held fast to her arm as he led her back to his car. Once in the car, he chattered excitedly.

 

“It’s going to be great. You and me. Can’t you see it? We can get a house up north...”

 

Jen worked to keep her tone positive, calming, reassuring.

 

They drove through the streets,  streets Jen had grown up on, which now seemed threatening, menacing.

 

He cruised up to the apartment complex where she lived, though unbeknownst to him, she’d directed him to the opposite end where her place was, to throw him off.

 

Ed asked for her phone number and Jen casually wrote down a series of numbers for him on a slip of newspaper.

 

He begged her once more for reassurance that she really would marry him, and she again responded in her calm voice in the affirmative. He let her go.

 

Jennifer stepped out of his car and calmly walked into the complex,  walking not towards her apartment but towards the central courtyard.  Ed drove off. Once in the courtyard, she ran to the little used front entrance of her friend’s place. 

 

Jen let herself in and found her boyfriend’s brother standing in front of the tv, watching a game. 

 

“Hey,” he said, “what’s new?”

 

Jen collapsed in his over-sized bean bag chair.

 

“I’ve just been raped,” she responded flatly, numbly.

 

“What?! Have you called the cops?!”


“No...” her voice trailed off.

 

He bolted for the phone, dialed the police. Together they worked out the details and he relayed those into its receiver for her. 

 

Wondrously, the police apprehended Ed within the hour at a 7-11, where he was found casually buying a soda, busted handcuffs in his pocket.

 

March 22nd, 1993 was finally coming to a close. A day Jen would not soon forget. 


New piece! - March 20, 2011

"Retro Guitar (Vintage Gretsch)" 12"x12" 

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In other art news, I had a blast at the St Patty's Day ArtWalk the other evening in Long Beach. Looks like it's going to be a regular gig for me. So mark your calendars & be sure to come out to Shoreline Village in Long Beach on April 21st to check out my art live & in person!

Ireland - winter of '95 - March 16, 2011

I don't know how it happened, I think it was by way of the Pogues, but suddenly in the mid-90s I became obsessed with traditional Irish music. Not the syrupy, overwrought ballads but the bawdy, colorful pub drinking songs and fast-paced, melody-meandering jigs & reels. This music tickled my fancy, triggered some latent memory in my Irish DNA. The Dubliners, the Clancy Brothers, the Bothy Band, the Chieftains were all on my playlist, so it was with great excitement I jumped at the chance to visit Ireland in the fall of 1995. I'd been living in Cambridge, England, where I was a student participating in a study abroad program and a bunch of guys were planning to rent a van and tool around the island's perimeter. And so we did. For 10 days, we drove from Dublin to Galway to Doolin to the Cliffs of Moher, the Rock of Cashel, Blarney Castle, Cork City, Waterford then flew home. I was the only female amongst 6 men of varying ages. Luckily, having a tomboy-disposition and having been the only girl in a rock band, I knew how to conduct myself amongst so much testosterone and I got along just fine with all the guys, without incident. The guys, on the other hand, had their clashes with each other, what with a bit of the drink in them... 

The memory of the beauty of Ireland stayed with me as I returned to my studies in Cambridge. I was coming up on the end of the program in December and thought, "right. Ireland's right there, I love it, love its music, its land, its history, its people, now's my chance." And so it was that at age 25 I found myself waving goodbye to my fellow classmates and boarding a plane for Ireland, with just a few bags and my Guild guitar in tow. 

I didn't want to go to Dublin, that seemed too easy and obvious. I'd fallen for Cork City while there in October, had also learned at a genealogical center that that was the likely town of origin of my ancestors on my mom's father's side of the family. So I set Cork (locals pronounce it "Kark") in my sight lines. I didn't have much money but did have an overarching optimism and naivete that everything would somehow sort itself out. I took up temporary residence at a hostel across from the train station in Cork on Lower Glanmire Road (the rough side of town, so the locals whispered furtively to me). Inside the drafty Georgian house resplendent in bohemian thrift store decor, I was one of only 2 other residents, a German gal, Stephanie, about my age and a cranky punk rock Irish guy, a little older, Damian. In my room upstairs I could look out on the street, a classic Irish scene of Georgian row homes, a pub with a blinking neon sign that showed through the dilapidated slats of my blinds (my towel draped over the rod helped that problem at night).  A shower with no hot water ever made for interesting mornings in the 40 degree temps. One room downstairs had an ever present peat fire burning where one could cozy up with their tea and conversation, the sting of some peat smoke in the air hard on my eyes. 

Stephanie and I took a liking to each other. She was waitressing nearby at a cafe and I'd stop in to visit her on breaks. I'll never forget one conversation where I was telling her about how I once lived in Seattle. She furrowed her brow quizzically, looked at me and said "you mean SEET-le?" I laughed and said "See-AT-le!" She reached over and pinched my arm playfully at my mocking. 

I needed to make money and began pounding the pavement, stopping into pubs, restaurants, shops, wherever, pitching my services. But the moment proprietors realized I didn't have a work permit they'd shake their heads. I even called on an ad for a strawberry picker, alas, no go. So I did what every musician does in these circumstances, I took to the streets with my guitar. Standing, shivering, with guitar case propped open, I'm pretty sure most of the money chucked in was out of pity. I didn't dare sing Irish songs and open myself up to criticism from traditionalists ("coals to Newcastle" indeed). I stuck with classic rock standards, your Beatles, your Dylan, etc... One day I met a young woman (whose name I can't for the life of me recall), aloof, slight, tiny and bashful with wild Irish hair, playing the pennywhistle down the block. Since she and I were in the same poor boat, we hung out but agreed not to play together. Playing together would mean less money and we needed to eat! So we'd do our "shift," her down the block and over, me down the way within view, then we'd meet up at the pub afterwards, to warm up and compare notes. She told me her story: she hailed from a farm in a small village and just couldn't take that monotonous lifestyle any more. Against her father's wishes, she'd come to the big city of Cork to see if she could make a living playing traditional music on her pennywhistle. 

Everyone would say to me, "just find an Irish guy and get him to marry you. Then you're in and won't have the work permit problem." But that idea of using someone to further my purposes was flat out, against everything I stood for. Even though I didn't have a problem meeting guys. There were escapades, of course...

I had to move out of the hostel on Lower Glanmire Road. It was too far from the city centre where all the action was. I bid goodbye to the scowling punk and Steph and schlepped my belongings from the wrong side of the tracks to a more swank hostel across from the university. I walked in the front door to the strains of Bob Dylan's song "Jokerman" playing which I took as a great sign, to hear one of my all-time favorite songs upon entry into the next phase of my journey. 

This hostel was cheap, cheerful and packed. Tourists from all over the world, Scandinavians, Italians, Japanese, Australians, it was like a Bennetton ad. This place had working showers with genuine hot water, more light, blinds that kept out the streetlight and a big drawing room with a tv that we'd all gather around (which seemed to almost always be tuned to Australian soap operas, go figure). I continued busking daily, weather permitting and hanging out with Pennywhistle Girl, hitting the pubs to listen to live music at night. There was alternately a monotony to my days and a tense excitement. Would I make any money today? Would it be raining? Where was all this leading? How was I going to get my hands on a work permit?  I scored a gig in one pub, the patrons so polite and attentive it took me aback. They were thrilled I knew Dylan songs and I recall singing "Tangled up in Blue," "Don't Think Twice it's All Right" and "One More Cup of Coffee" to them/at them. 

One day the weather was too bleak and blustery for busking but I wasn't about to sit around the hostel all day. I went for an hours long walk, just walking and walking, visiting the ancient jail ("gaol") going up high in Cork's hills for a magnificent view of the town. Popping into cathedrals to admire their architecture, stained glass windows. I was starting to feel defeated, the hunger was getting to me. I was getting by in part by the kindness of strangers at the hostel, people who'd give the silly California blonde a slice of pizza or a piece of toast. There were others at the hostel, who like me, had come to Ireland not as a tourist but to try to settle in and make a new life. They were poor too and we all helped one another out. One evening, one of the guys burst through the door excitedly, in his hands, massive turnips. Seemed a turnip truck had had an accident on the street and dozens of enormous turnips had fallen out. We giddily harvested this turnip bounty and set about trying to figure out how the hell to prepare them. It was put to a vote and decided we'd slice them up and fry them, like french fries (which really should be called Irish fries if you think about it. I mean, c'mon. Ireland & potatoes...) The turnip fries were terrible, hardly edible, but washed down with beer it helped stave off hunger for one more day.

After a couple months of this, I had to acknowledge to myself that this wasn't going to work. The only way I'd be granted a work permit was if I applied back in the U.S. It was that, marry an Irish guy or busk and starve for God-knows-how-long. My health was deteriorating from the poverty, the lack of nutrition and I realized why my Irish ancestors immigrated in the first place. A call home to the folks and a plane ticket back to SoCal was arranged for. But first, I had to journey to London to catch my flight. I left Cork City one evening, my friends from the hostel, Pennywhistle Girl and Steph accompanying me to the bus station. I bid a tearful, exhausted goodbye and then clambered aboard the bus, where I gazed out the window as we toodled through villages and towns, on to the coast, to catch the late night ferry across the sea to England. 
(Here's a song I wrote & recorded with the band Desert Sage, that was influenced by my time in Ireland, "Dublin Rain," http://www.asktunes.com/audio/ASK-Dublin_Rain.mp3 )

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A window in Blarney Castle, County Cork, Ireland

30 Seconds/Japan - March 15, 2011

Perusing my website's stats this morning, I was surprised to see a spike in clicks on my old song "30 Seconds." Written in 1995 about the '94 Northridge earthquake & recorded by my old band Cowboy Buddha, it's a raw, punky, sloppy demo where I didn't so much sing as holler the words. I was really sick the day we recorded this, running a fever, but I didn't want to let the guys down, so I got through the afternoon by napping in the car in between recording vocals & bass lines. Check it out: http://asktunes.com/audio/COWBOY_BUDDHA-30_Seconds.mp3

All I can think about these days is Japan. I know I'm not alone in this. I'm at the point where I can't even watch/listen/read the news anymore, or else I'll curl up in the fetal position & never move again. It's unfathomable, the scope and magnitude of the devastation the people are experiencing. It's beyond the realm of my imagination or understanding. Saying I feel badly for the people of Japan is feeble. My heart aches. One of my best friends in high school was a lovely flutist named Noriko Kakutani. She only lived in California for the duration of high school, her father made her return to Tokyo immediately following graduation to attend university. We exchanged letters, phone calls, for awhile after her return but lost touch. I'm wondering how she is, where she is... I've got a couple other old friends in Japan that I'm worried sick about. But mostly, I wish the multiple crises would just stop so everyone could begin the task of rebuilding their lives. I wish my rambling words here could do some good, serve a purpose, other than to lament the sad state of a nation. I've donated to the Red Cross... if I was a healthy person I'd head over there & assist. 

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Shop/Art Walk! - March 10, 2011

I've added a slew of new items to my online shop, have a looksy: http://www.etsy.com/shop/AngelTunes

And in other news, I'll be exhibiting/selling at the new 3rd Thursday Art Walk at Shoreline Village in Long Beach. This Art Walk is brand new but there will be great art on view in a lovely locale by the water. And yes, that is St Patrick's Day & it just so happens that you can find all kinds of groovy eateries/drinkeries here too. For more info, check out their Facebook page: http://www.facebook.com/pages/3rd-Thursday-Art-Walk/185342274820850. Hope to see you there!

Head Scratching. - March 4, 2011

All these lovely, dramatic sunset photos I've taken with my spiffy new camera in the last couple months & the one photo that's blowing people away over on Redbubble is this Virginia snow scene I shot with my little old point & shoot! On autofocus, no less! I don't know...

http://www.redbubble.com/people/angellacanfora/art/6828164-1-maury-road-virginia

Photo Prints Now Available! - March 3, 2011

Now y'all have the ability to purchase prints (framed, matted, laminated, whatever your wish...) of my photos through a great site called Redbubble. You can click here: http://www.redbubble.com/people/angellacanfora or from here on out for easy access, click the handy-dandy widget on the front page of this site.

And don't forget that this Saturday I'll be exhibiting/selling my mosaics and stained glass suncatchers at the 2nd Annual Long Beach Mardi Gras. They're calling for beautiful weather down by the harbor so c'mon out and catch some rays! http://lbmardigras.com/2011/

Busy busy!

One Night Turned Life - A Story - March 2, 2011

 

It was a lousy way to start a week, her being given the pink slip at her temp job after only a couple months there. And Jennifer had needed this job bad. Only recently her and her boyfriend George had begun climbing out of their financial hole. But now George was employed in a lab, working the night shift, while she took the day at a failing computer manufacturing company. Young, naive and generally chemically altered, she'd gotten a bemused thrill out of obtaining a security clearance badge, one she'd have to swipe before entering one of the many thick plate-glass steel doors, which would sci-fi part into gleaming rooms full of white jumpsuited martian people, hovering over computer parts. But this afternoon, her kindly, matronly boss had pulled her aside and together they sat on stairs in the warehouse, where the boss mother explained that it wasn't personal, the company was struggling and letting go of dozens of people and unfortunately, today Jennifer was one of them.

So, dazed and sullen, Jennifer caught a bus home right after the talk (George had taken their one car since he had the odd hours and worked further away). Back at the apartment she shared with him, his brother and an unassuming roommate who stayed cloistered in his room most of the time, Jennifer found herself sad in the silence of the living room. She tended to take everything personally, too hard, regardless the assurances from others not too. She sulked, moped and paced around the apartment, deciding ultimately that she needed to get out of there for awhile, treat herself to something nice. A good meal perhaps...

It was coming upon evening when Jennifer caught the bus to Pacific Coast Highway. She made her way over to Sunset Beach, to her favorite cafe, the Harbor House, and there indulged herself with a turkey croissant sandwich (with jack cheese) and a glass of white wine while peering down at the pages of a newspaper. The place was crowded and lively with its garden meets beachy decor,  its patrons gabbing loudly. After her meal, she made her way outside. Dressed casually she hadn't thought to bring a jacket or sweater. A plain white tshirt over her boyfriend's fathers long-sleeve navy blue waffle shirt, two sizes too big for her, that had somehow made its way into her possession, black stretchy-clingy bike shorts to her knees, and brand new brown high top shoes with thick socks (after all, this was the grunge era). The sun was setting and it dawned on Jennifer that she'd forgotten how the bus schedule is pared back in the evenings, running only half as frequently. Annoyed by her forgetfulness, she started walking south down PCH, with the idea that she'd catch a bus at the corner where it meets Warner Ave. It'd be a long walk, but Jennifer liked walking and it was a lovely spring evening.

She'd gone only a couple of blocks, when a snazzy red sports car pulled up along the curb.

"Hey," called the driver, a man not much older than her, "you want a ride?" 

"No, thanks," Jennifer called out firmly, warily and continued walking without breaking her stride.

A few minutes passed and Red Sports Car Guy pulled up again.

"Hey, you sure you don't want a ride? I don't mind. It's not like I'm some ax-murderer or something," he said jovially, ironically. 

Jennifer, in her warm fuzzy white-wined condition, sighed, shrugged and climbed into the strange man's car. 

To be continued...


Soapboxy - March 1, 2011

I'm going to clamber atop my soapbox for a moment, after all, it's my blog & I'll rant if I want to...

Folks, there's an epidemic raging in our towns and villages across this great nation of ours and it's called smugness. I can't look at the internet or at a newspaper without seeing evidence of it. I'm going to blame the internet and websites such as Facebook, which have gotten all of us into the habit of liberally wielding our opinions without much consequence. The rise of the celebrity pundit, your Rush's, your Rachel Maddow's, your Keith Olbermann's, have made it look sexy and courageous to spout off. Don't think the irony isn't lost on me here that that's exactly what *I* am doing now. The difference here is that I'm not smugly gloating, looking down on someone and self-righteously rendering my opinion on them (okay I AM being self-righteous, but it's not directed at any one person). Whether they be a drug-addled comedian who is obviously mentally ill, or a pop singer struggling with her career who has just been sprung from stir, the media hounds are on their haunches and chomping at the bit, as the scent of blood from the wounded permeates the air. It's easy and effortless to snicker and judge. It's harder to be compassionate, to stop and take a moment to look at these people, or anyone else in a tough time in their life and to try to put yourself in their shoes. And just because someone has a surfeit of cash doesn't mean they're ripe for attacking either.
Last night I was reading Paul Theroux's book "Fresh Air Fiend," and one passage hit home with me. To paraphrase, Theroux said that after a lifetime of living and traveling to exotic places, he'd come to realize that Americans don't tolerate eccentricity nearly as well as they'd like to believe. We as Americans go around patting ourselves on the back, we're "kings of the world," the cradle of democracy, shining a beacon for other cultures to follow. When in fact, Americans are quite hostile to those they perceive as different. As an artist, I've had people make unbelievable comments to me about the way I've chosen to live my life. If someone's intimidated by another person's creative way of living, of their desire to live outside "normal's" box, it says a lot more about them then me and how I wish they'd open their hearts and minds and just talk...but I digress...
Anyway, back to my original point. I'm someone who keeps up with the news, who stays current with national and world affairs. And the ugly, snarling, self-righteous diatribes directed at Sheen ( whose behavior I'm not defending here ) are themselves examples of ugly behavior. Sheen's wacky behavior doesn't give everyone a free pass. It's like the Bugs Bunny cartoon "dog pile on the rabbit!" So sad to see media's wolves circling, licking their chops as they descend on the weak. The media's behavior is cheap and low, embarrassing and disgusting. Phew. And one day, the snarlers might find themselves on the other side of their tarnished coin. "How does it feel? To be on your own, a complete unknown, like a rolling stone..." 
Now let's all look at the purdy picture, breathe deeply and exhale an "ommm" together. That's better!
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1980 (with a P.S.) - February 27, 2011

My Huntington Beach: 1980. Mom, Dad & I have moved into a cozy, 4 bedroom bungalow on Prescott Lane around the corner from my new school. There's a vast lawn in front, with one lone tree in the middle, a big driveway, a roomy garage that smells like gasoline and dust. You walk from the driveway up the path to the front door. Step up. Turn knob, step in. A white, ceramic tile hallway straight ahead, to the left, the kitchen with a door on the far side leading to the backyard. There's a window over the sink. A phone mounted on one wall with a cord that can stretch 6 feet. A rectangular wood table in one corner. The floor covered in a flowery mustard color linoleum tile. You can walk out into the living room. Against one wall, a massive wood-panelled tv set, the sort that resides on the ground, back when tv's could be ponderous furniture. A brick fireplace in the other wall. An area at the far end holds the dining room table and chairs. Eventually, a vintage upright piano will inhabit another wall. The biggest side wall is mostly window with a sliding glass door that leads to a spacious, plain, grass-lawn backyard, devoid of trees, save for the neighbor's on the far right that looms large enough to provide some shade. Thick concrete walls separate our yard on 3 sides. It's like an impenetrable fortress. This doesn't stop me and my friends from regularly clambering onto a bench beside the far left wall and peeking over at the pool next door. There's a blackberry bush abutting one wall that sprouts hundreds of bulbous, plummy berries when they're in season. The far end of the yard next to the house there's a gate leading to a useless space with unkempt grass and weeds. This space seems to make my dad nervous for some reason and I can tell he doesn't like me going there. There's a black and yellow dartboard mounted on the backside of the house, where Dad and I regularly challenge one another. He's a shark, bulls-eye's all the time. With his 6'3" frame he's got a distinct advantage over my puny 10 year old one. But he never gloats over beating me and always lets me stand closer to the board then him.

These are the peaceful days. My folks seem productive and hopeful. We've long left behind the slummy apartment in Midway City (Little Saigon) and after a few tries living in different points around HB and Fountain Valley, have finally settled in. These are the days before my stormy adolescence strikes, before my dad's heart problems lay him flat for a year, before my Italian grandma moves in. Right now, my dad is my buddy, always playing ball with me. He's thrilled by my tomboyishness, my love of sports and has bought me a baseball glove. He often takes me 'round the corner to Hope View school on warm evenings to bat some balls around on the field. We go to Murdy Park to play tennis, and I'm distinctly rotten at it, so I always wind up his ball girl while he works on his serve. It becomes a running joke "hey want to play some tennis?" he says slyly, knowing full well I can't play. He installs a basketball hoop over the garage; pretty sure this was at my insistence. But the driveway slopes, making it a challenge to play. So Dad & I or the neighbor kids play Horse, but if the ball hits the ground it leaves it at an angle and often shoots out to the street, making for many frustrating moments of waiting for the retrieval of the ball. Speaking of neighbors, I've got a neighbor next door, a boy my age, Chad. He's dark complected, black hair, smoky eyes, a lithe frame, taller than me. We develop terrible crushes on each other but we're young and don't know what to do with 'em. So he and his pals tease and taunt me, play pranks on me. I catch him peeking over the wall into my yard at odd hours of the night. He catches me. It's all very sweet and goes on for a couple years in this vein until he and his family move on. I run into him about 7 years later. He's a jock and I'm a hippie musician. Our lives have diverged, he's going his way, I'm going mine, but we've grown to be good people who are happy to see one another. Life goes on.

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P.S. Just discovered that a recent photo of mine made the L.A. Time's featured "Photo of the Day!!" http://www.latimes.com/features/socalmoments/

Late Night Artist Lounge - February 26, 2011

...a quickie poem that came to me earlier today when somebody told the truth... 

Late Night Artist Lounge

Ramblin' Rembrandt
and poet Picasso
noticed singing Cézanne
digging Degas.
Carefree Kahlo
sat with moaning Monet 
at the bar.
Careening Kandinsky
with his 
Van Gogh valentine
on the dance floor.
He's got a Warhol wobble
and a verdant Vermeer smile.
Meanwhile Hockney's hollering
at delirious Dali by the stage,
"hey... Banksy was here!" 

 

Spring on the Brain - February 26, 2011

"3 Blooms" mosaic - 12"x12" .... stained glass, millefiori, beads, smalti & lumpy glass blobs on wood...

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Mardi Gras - Long Beach, California Style!! - February 22, 2011

Mark your calendars! I'll be exhibiting my work in the Artist Village from 12pm to 6pm at the 2nd Annual Long Beach Mardi Gras. This is the real deal, with a parade, a King & Queen, live music, a Beer Garden, a "Party Gras" fun zone, revelers in costumes, and local restaurants/bars featuring specials and open into the wee hours. So come on out for a day of celebrating under the SoCal sun (fingers crossed!) while supporting your local artists! Check out the event website: http://lbmardigras.com/2011/

The breakdown:

Where: Downtown Long Beach, California

When: Saturday, March 5th. Noon til ?

What: Exhibits lasting all afternoon, a parade that begins at 3pm at the LB Aquarium, a family friendly "Kid Zone,"  a "Party Gras" adult fun zone in Shoreline Village, all local restaurants/bars open late.

The Artist Village: Located along Shoreline Drive close to Shoreline Village (ends at 6pm)

Weather report - February 20, 2011

Skies today, clearing to partly planet. Highs in the lows, low in the highs. The sun will rise, the sun will set. You will wake up, you will go to bed. You will eat and drink some water. You just might, possibly, blow your nose. In an instant your life may change. You might get into a car accident, your car gets totaled, your body bruised, your sense of order shattered. You might meet the guy/girl of your dreams but go home not realizing that you did, but you'll develop a persistent little niggling in the back of your head, a kind of "hmm" and "huh." You might get a sudden affliction, a stabbing in the chest that fells you, knocks the wind right out of you. You might find yourself in a sterile steel room, many pairs of inquiring eyes beaming down at you widely. You might win the lottery and, depending on your view of materialism and your threshold for anxiety, find this a good thing. You could buy a new camera that suddenly lifts the quality of your photos up to a whole new level and find yourself besieged with kudos, awards and requests for prints. You might read a book, the opening words of which hit so close to home, they cut to your core, leave you so dazed, you have to put the book down and contemplate the fact that yes, someone else has felt and thought the exact same way as you at one time. You might walk down a dirt path feeling so full of life and energy, the sun beaming down on you, the crisp air with a chill that bites but is welcomed. You might get some bad news, some unexpected news, that saddens you, news that will alter your life's course unbeknownst to you. You might have an epiphany and get in touch with a feeling that has been gnawing your gut, way deep down inside and realize what you have to do, to live your life with emotional integrity. Or not. Your upper level low might collide with an air mass originating from the Arctic region, bringing know levels down to the valley floor. Your travel will be impacted by icy-stare roads. The cold air might entrench your region and you will find yourself struggling for warmth. But if you succeed, you'll be rewarded with sunny skies, highs in the low perfect.

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"If we are facing in the right direction, all we have to do is keep on walking." -Buddhist proverb

What I Think. - February 19, 2011

Whatever comes into my head will be the next word bled onto this keyboard. Being conscious of whatever art you're creating is a curse. I'm thinking. My mouth is kinda dry. Am I writing for me or an audience? Does it really matter in the end? I am an audience of one. My neck muscles feel kinda tight. There's blue in the sky outside with billowy cloud wisps. The courtyard is a disaster, with branches and leaves and limbs strewn about. I have to wrap her gift and sign the card. I need to dry my hair, apply a face. But the festivities don't begin til one. There's always so much to do. Too much to do. If I was a smarter woman, I'd have given birth to kids (or at least adopted) so that I'd have some handy indentured servants around to clean my apartment, do the laundry, the dishes, fetch the mail... A man with a hacking cough outside my window, walking his dog with a tinkling collar. Obviously, without seeing, it's a small dog, as the collar is jangling fast, too fast for a lumbering hound. A low flying plane overhead, a dash of a car on Algonquin. A sip of my water, but my mouth is still dry. Drank too much coffee and am now dehydrated. Wondering what kind of food will be on offer later at this shindig? Most likely typical American fare, heavy on the carbs. I hear tinkly dog again, the slam of a porch door. A moment of silence to ponder. My walls are overrun with mosaics, almost too many, making me feel claustrophobic, giving this room a cluttered, unkempt appearance. But this apartment is small & I'm an artist. Such is the way of the artist, to have a bit of unkemptness in their life. It's almost expected. I think it's in the artist's manual, "How to Live Like an Artist for Dummies." I make myself laugh. I have to. I'm single. But then again, I've always been the clown gal, the entertainer. It was a matter of survival in my household growing up. If I wasn't diffusing my parents tension with my wit and charm all hell would break loose. Keep 'em laughing! Give 'em a good show! That's me. Just a song & dance girl. Glancing around this room I see so much that needs tending to and it makes me sigh inwardly. There's that cheap, crappy office chair from Staples that needs repairing. There are stacks and stacks of cd's and books piled by the wall. There are shelves that need dusting, lampshades that need tilting. An octopus of cords lay by my tv that needs to be untangled: a cord for the computer speakers, a cord to power this laptop, the battery charger for my ancient flip cellphone, that's now so old and battered as to cause raising of eyebrows and suppressed smirks. My hair is nearly ready for me to blow-dry it. My email is chiming at me, set to sound like the bell of a microwave, it makes me laugh when I hear it ding. "Ding!" Another email. "Ding!" Toast is ready!

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Honestly... - February 18, 2011

Think I live in sunrise/sunset capital of the world! The gorgeous, striking shows come constantly, wonderful for the budding landscape photographer. Speaking of which, the Orange County Register is featuring one of my recent sunset photos in their online gallery here: http://sciencedude.ocregister.com/2011/02/17/storms-reward-reader-sunsets-rainbows/121831/

Here are some more recent sunrise/sunset photos

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Sunset in Huntington Beach, CA, February 13, 2011

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A stormy dawn breaks at the Bolsa Chica wetlands in Huntington Beach, CA. February 18th, 2011

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Sunset at the pier, Seal Beach, CA. February 14th, 2011

Photography News! - February 14, 2011

Just found out that the L.A. Times chose one of my sunset photos to feature on their website, out of a thousand submissions!! http://www.latimes.com/features/socalmoments/la-socalmoments-sunsets-html,0,7425752.htmlstory

Woo hoo!!

Yummy new mosaic! - February 14, 2011

"Paisley Dreams" 12"x12" smalti, vitreous glass, plastic & glass beads on wood. Honestly, doesn't it look edible? Just like candy...

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New song! - February 12, 2011

and yet more photos... - February 11, 2011

I've added a bunch of photos to the gallery featuring my photography. Have a looksy...

here's one taken earlier today. I call this "Pining."

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